Because Blogger's "Adult warning" often goes into a perpetual loop (isn't working properly), I will be making all new posts at my WordPress blog. You can follow it even if you do not have a WordPress Account. There're also my Twitter and my Tumblr blog, my Facebook and my Google+ page and my group.
(Update: Blogger hasn't fixed its problem with the "adult warning". Will go back to posting at my WordPress blog)

Saturday, February 21, 2015

Bad dreams

This morning (it's Saturday, so I have a lie-in, dozing, instead of getting up at 5.50 a.m. as I do on a weekday)  I had a recurring dream.  I was in some place I didn't know, but half recognised.  And everywhere I went, in despair, trying to find something--anything--familiar, I was threatened by men.  Not actually hit, but those sneering, disdainful, mocking looks and comments which we all know only too well.

Interesting that in your dreams what you deep down really think and fear is revealed.  And the the truth is, I shall never be comfortable with straights, or indeed with men.  Always trying to be "the good kid", trying too hard to be nice and complaisant, always I excite disdain instead of liking or understanding.

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